It starts….

Again.

I feel it.

An ache.

No. Not an ache. Not even physical pain.

Just.

Just the inside shit again.

Why? 

You take your meds. You go to your appointments. You stay sober.

You stay sober.

But. 

When will it end? When will the inside hurt stop? When will I want to enjoy life?

It. 

Hurts.

And I don’t know why, and I don’t know how to ask for help.

Good thing I smile..