When will I learn?
Be positive, accept my blessings, give gratitude to my higher everyday and the life will work out.
When will I learn?
Have a great new home with an amazing, loving lady. A fresh start for us all.
When will I learn?
Good job, great future, great kids, one helluva mutt. It’s all coming together.
When will I learn?
Got let go today for “lack of work”.
Now I’ve learned.
Every time my life takes an unprecedented turn for the positive something always hammers me back down. I truly believe it’s karma forcing me to pay a penance for my past horrific life. A life I changed years ago, but may still affect others. It’s now a time to take stock.
A time to build up defences dropped long ago. A time to protect those I love from my bad karma. If I and my new family are to flourish I will have to adopt some of my former self-preservation skills.
Oh, I’ll find a new job and be grateful for it. I’ll put money in our bank and food on our table, I’m certain. But I’ll never be at ease with it.
I will never forget the feeling of today, the feeling of having no value to an employer. I’ll never forget the feeling of yesterday, of feeling valued or more accurately, mocked by an employer.
My biggest failure was letting my guard down, letting myself believe everything was going to be grand.
I let myself believe the universe doesn’t have a memory.
I forgot Karma’s a bitch.